For 8 years my spouse and I had lived happily.  I'm 45 and he is 46.  I've a daughter from a previous marriage and it was after my divorce that I met HIM.  He was a bachelor without children.  During our 8 years together he never could accept my daughter as his own, although I had hoped for my daughter's sake that she would finally have a father (her natural father was an alcoholic maniac).  My husband didn't even like children and that had been a consistent problem during our 8 years together.  Only that.

Suddenly he had a heart attack - the most serious type.  It was due to a business problem.  The doctor suggested that he take up some new interest to occupy his mind with.  That's when he purchased a computer and that is where the nightmare began.  We learned its use through method of deduction.  When we first hooked on to the net we joined a chat program.  It was a totally unfamiliar environment for us.  My husband was invited to a private chat by a female.  I sat right next to him as they carried on.

My husband was never what you could call a great lover in bed, and although with a little effort I always got what I wanted.  After the heart attack and due to the medication he was even weaker but on that chat he became super stud.  Suddenly he saw great and colorful adventures possible from this side of the table.

He always had difficulty sleeping and seldom slept more than 3-4 hours a night.  On the other hand, I sleep well and as a result I was not able to sit with him at all times.  These times gave him the opportunity to completely delude himself into this world.  We've not been used to going out much even before he became sick, because he liked staying at home.

He completely flipped out and the only thing that mattered to him was the chat.  He felt that through it there were possibilities for him that he never realized.  He left us.  Now he wants a child and is looking for the right partner.  I feel he is running head on into tragedy.  He has money and I know that he will find someone, at least for as long as the money lasts.  Although he had not yet found anyone in particular, I realize that I've lost him forever.

And that is how my life was ruined by internet love   :(

Rose